It’s simple really. Is me feeling uncomfortable more important to me than you feeling comfortable? Oh! Hell No!
So, if you make me feel uncomfortable, I should not be around or in presence of you, correct?
If you are comfortable with me being miserable, then for my own sake I should be distancing myself from you, right?
Theoretically, yes this is ideal, yet most of us find it ridiculously difficult to act on it, to which I ask Why?
Because pleasing others has been cultivated in our generations in the name of culture, or just plain ethics or politeness and that for so long, it’s more than difficult to even carbon date it. BUT I am Done!
Here is me, and play this visual in your mind, like a GIF on repeat and hashtag whatever you want to, giving a Flying Goose to your comfort that comes out of my misery. Here on, its Me and My sanity. Everything else can go fly a kite!!!!
Lesson 1: Unlearn
They taught me to be Kind at 3, but they forgot to tell me to be Kind to Me,
They asked me to be Wise at 11, told me everything should be forgiven, they never taught me to Forgive Me,
They told me to not be Dreamy at 12, made sure in my dreams I do not dwell, they forgot to mention I could still pray for Me,
They asked me to Sacrifice my youth at 20, said there would be time to enjoy life plenty, about the consequences of my sacrifices, they failed to educate Me,
Your methods are faulty, demands even more so,
Finding my happiness made me feel guilty, and finding peace felt even worse than you know….
Why in God’s name shouldn’t I Unlearn what You taught me? Why in the Universe should I not Burn all fake education you bought me?
So, from here on I Choose Me!!!!
Lesson 2: I Choose Me
We chase the life they said is so fulfilling. Grow up, get good grades, get a degree, get a job, get a career, get a life partner, get married, have kids, educate them, raise them, get retired and die ‘Happy’. Yeah right!
How does one die Happy if one never lived Happy????
They created a Template for life and like sheep in herds we follow their steps like mindless turds. Sure, if you believe when they say, die happy.
I hear what they say, but say what you may, I don’t believe them.
So, I won’t follow them, its that simple but took me over 2 decades to make it a habit,
Because they try silence my opinions, ask me to not stand out but camouflage like chameleons, just like the other 10s and 100s of millions, but no more!
From here on, I Choose Me….
I will believe what I want to, in that process will learn to trust me gut too, and while I am at that I will purge all the Shallow.
Like my friends Marie Kondo’d their closets, I will Marie Kondo my Life, my friendships, my relationships and all my subscriptions too. I am going to Purge All that doesn’t bring me Joy, Comfort and Contentment. And if that includes you then so be it, hell I say you don’t need me too cause from here on, I don’t care for you,
because from here on I Choose Me….
Lesson 3: Pages of my Destiny
Do not ask me to fulfill your dreams no more, I have my own to work on,
Ask me not to give your apologies to this planet you ripped, I have my own footprints to wash off,
I cannot be the person you failed to become, I have my own ambitions,
Who I become, I decide,
Who I spend my life with, I decide,
I wait no more for your approval, I pivot no more to serve your pride,
No longer will I blend in, no longer will I hide,
I will stand up if I want to, I will stand out if I wish to,
No matter what ending, it is my story to tell, these are my pages to write….
So, ask no more of me, I have none left to give you,
I need what’s left of me, to write the pages of my destiny,
as long as there’s a breath left in me, I’ll need what’s left of me, till the day I die….